Kelly Azuma

I bought myself a new pair of fluffy, chenille-like material socks today. Ahh they are sooo nice and warm! Lucky I didn’t buy more though, turns out I won’t need them for long.

Had a great day. I walked 2.3 km to the nearest shops, picked up a few groceries including some chickpea ‘hamburgers’ that are pre-cooked. They have other veggies in them too. I thought they would be good this week as a substitute to meat. I also got some veggies for a stirfry, some pre-cut watermelon slices, and salad. I also checked out the other meat substitutes, tempeh, vegetarian bacon, vegetarian sausages, vegetarian chicken, I was amazed at the range, I’d never actually looked at it before.

I plan to eat about one meat meal a week, probably red meat as that is my favourite.

Anyways, Yasu had other plans, I found out when he got home tonight, he had bought pork belly again, and wanted to make butadon. So I let him make it, but I only had a spoonful of rice to make him happy, and had a side salad. It was quite nice. We had some watermelon for dessert, very juicy.

I took a pic of my new socks with my mobile phone. I haven’t taken them off since I got home, they are so comfy!

Today I decided to start eating vegetarian, because of some issues I have been having when I eat pasta, rice, and bread. If I eat them, I feel really tired. I also feel lethargic from eating meat and dairy. A few of my spiritual teachers eat vegetarian, they are not strict, they do eat cake and sweets when they need a sugar hit, and sometimes they will have meat, like once a month. I’ve been getting a few suggestions from spirit lately about what I should be eating so I decided to go with what they are telling me, try vegetarian, you have a sensitive system. I know I feel really good when I eat vegetarian, I feel light, and alive.

I cleaned out my pantry and threw out all the old tins of stuff we never used, and I’m kind of glad that’s out of the way, I’ve been meaning to do that for a long time. I can actually see what is in there now!

I’m going for a walk to get a few groceries. I really need the exercise. When it’s cold and rainy like it has been every day so far, it’s so easy to stay inside and hibernate!! Today is sunny, a perfect blue sky day, 20 degrees, and I’m going to get out there an enjoy it.

I finished watching Okuribito – Departures, and it was a great movie!! I love it! Such a moving story. Actually the actress Ryoko Hirosue is Yasu’s favourite, he’s a major fan of her, has collected all her photo books and what-not over the years, but he hasn’t seen it yet. She is a good actress but I really wanted to slap her at some point in the movie (if you watch you will know what part). The male lead is great too. I also like the male supporting actor, he’s really good. So if you can watch this movie, I really recommend it to you!!

Day 3 of Yasu being home and he drove me crazy all day. He’s well enough to annoy me but not well enough to go to work.

He keeps following me around, then making a mess, I think I have re-made the bed about ten times today because he keeps getting in and out and mucking it up! Then I discovered that he hadn’t read the back of the package of the flu pills correctly and had taken 6 in a 4 hour space instead of 2!! No wonder he was so high, they had pseudoephidrine in them.

I am at the point today where I said to him “Yasu, go to work tomorrow okay? You’re really pissing me off”, and he laughed. He gets it I think. It wasn’t a mean thing, I’m telling the truth. He knows how he gets.

I had a marathon chat with A on Skype tonight about everything. Loving Skype, just loving it.

In between that I was crying my eyes out watching a Japanese Movie that was originally a drama called One Litre Of Tears. I didn’t realise it was a true story before I watched it. Very sad, but also makes me think about my life and realise how good I have it. Really brave girl, very inspiring.

After that I started watching おくりびと (Departures), but I’m only half way through. It’s really good!!! I’m really enjoying it.

Today we woke up and Yasu decided he still wasn’t well enough to go to work. I don’t know what it is but having him home the last two days has totally thrown me in that I’ve been so lazy. The only real work I have been doing was sorting out my healing room and my website.

I’ve felt abit tired myself the last two days, not sure if it’s because of major energy work on the weekend, the coldness temperature-wise of Perth at the moment, or because I’m coming down with Yasu’s cold. (Hope not).

I made quiche for dinner tonight, just chicken, bacon, and tomato. I had some major drama’s with the shortcrust pastry in that it stuck to the baking paper I was rolling it in, but in the end it worked out ok and tasted good without me having to make a second batch. Patience under fire I guess.

After dinner, about 6:45pm I felt really tired, and despite having a few squares of chocolate and a juicy orange, I really felt drained energy-wise. Yasu was off to bed and I went too. He woke me up with his coughing at 11:30pm and I couldn’t get back to sleep so here I am. I don’t mind as I had a good 5 hour sleep that was deep and must have given me some energy back.

I’m not sure if Yasu will go to work tomorrow, but I’m supposing he will. When he isn’t there the team just kind of grind to a halt because he is the supervisor of the project. I’ve been fielding their calls for the last two days…I’ve been really mean actually, not really putting any calls through because he really needs his rest. He said himself today that he thinks he pushed himself too hard on the project the last few weeks.

Hmm so not really interesting, but basically that is what is going on with us at the moment. I’m hoping to get my healing room sorted by the end of this week, at least that is my personal deadline.

I got an email from Yasu’s sister too to say that she is going to keep the fact of me going to Japan in November a secret, so it will be a good surprise for their parents. I think it’s a cool idea, haha, just arriving at their doorstep – SURPRISE! haha. Otoosan still hasn’t been back to work because he’s still undergoing rehab for his hand (that got caught in the brick machine), and he can’t even start the car because he can’t turn his hand enough. I didn’t actually say to her to keep it a secret, but she obviously thought it should be.

This morning I woke up just after 9am and because it was quite cold I was just laying there thinking about what I was going to do with my day when I heard a key in the door. It was Yasu, he had come home from work sick.

He told me last night he didn’t feel well but he didn’t really elaborate. So I set about getting him sorted out with a blanket and a cup of tea, heated up his bento for him and gave him some flu pills to take. We watched some jtv and then about 12pm I bundled him off to bed with a heat pack.

I got stuck into my business website and it’s almost finished. I also tackled my healing room, I didn’t realise how many books I’ve accumulated in the last year!! I seriously need a small bookcase for my healing room now. I’m quite happy with the amount I got accomplished today. I really made a good effort.

I also got outside for a while, sat and ate some fruit outside on the patio. I was going to go for a walk up to the river at the back of us but it was soooo cold and the wind was freezing, I decided to do it tomorrow, hopefully it’s warmer.

I cooked lasagne for dinner and Yasu woke up more or less when I was serving it, so good timing. He stayed up for a while and has just gone back to bed with a heat pack, some vicks on his chest and some flu pills. I’m such an old mother hen but I can’t help it. Whenever he is sick I seriously want to look after him so much, I’m not sure where it comes from, maybe it’s just being a woman?

Apart from that I had two pieces of good luck today, I received a $20 gift card in the mail courtesy of a survey I had done last month, and I also got a phone call from a market research company to come in and watch tv for an hour and get paid $60. The research is about car insurance, which we have, just have to watch the tv and the following cm’s and say what we think about it. Pretty easy money. Thanks Abraham!

When I first started out on my spiritual journey, having learnt Reiki and Massage I went about setting up my own home based business. As I started learning and gradually came to realise that I was a healer, I set aside a room in our house and called it my “healing room”. As it so happens for some reason we had painted that room a kind of grape-purple, the same as our bedroom, but we didn’t know why. Purple is a colour that resonates strongly with the spiritual world, and in particular Archangel Michael. I didn’t know that at the time, but for some reason it seemed meant to be.

At the end of last year, having gotten my room ready with a bed, and a table and all the basic requirements, I really wanted to start accepting clients. I went to a local reader who told me that I “couldn’t be a healer” right then because I “didn’t have enough wisdom”. I was really deflated, as I had already ordered my business cards and set up my website. I really lost confidence after that, believing myself to be “not good enough”. I still went on learning and discovering but I put my thoughts about healing others on the back-burner.

Through my own illness over the last year and a miscarriage or two, I have had quite alot of experience dealing with pain and sadness. It’s not as if I feel that before was any less, but I had a period of intense growth from then to now.

Today I went to a Fairie workshop by the ocean with a group of women I know. Another woman came who is a friend of one of the women and she is clairvoyant and also a reflexologist and intuitive. The two women who run the fairie workshop are both clairvoyant and around my age. It really was a great day and we discovered how to initiate contact with the fairies, how to attract them to your life/home/garden, how to build a relationship with them, and how to manifest with them.

One of the meditations we did, I was drawn to my healing room in my mind’s eye and I was told that “now is the time”. Remember how I said I was looking for a job so I can save money to go to Japan? Well I was told that it will be my job. The jobs I applied for I won’t get because the healing room is my job, and I am meant to go forward with healing others from now. It really came out of the blue for me but it felt and feels so right. I also realised I now have the confidence to go ahead with it.

I spoke to some of the other ladies about this revelation and they were horrified that another clairvoyant had said what she did to me, and said that I should have started healing others when I wanted to because everyone is different and everyone is still learning, no matter how experienced they are. I also felt like I was meant to have this conversation, a few of the ladies gave me a lot of encouragement and support about this particular topic and also a couple of the clairvoyant ladies told me that is what I am meant to be doing, and in the future I will also teach.

One of the workshop teachers will also become my teacher soon, as she told me that “I am ready” to use my clairvoyance but I need to be taught how. She said I have Angels and Fairies all around me and that my crown chakra is so bright and open. (Actually quite a few people have said that to me about my crown chakra).

So In the next few weeks I will be organising some lessons with one of the ladies which I am really looking forward to. This week I will be spending my time rearranging my healing room. I have a chest of drawers in there that is serving as a table, but I actually just bought a desk to go in there, so I have to sort it all out and get ready for clients. It’s so exciting and I feel like this is so right!! I can finally use my business cards and website.

As an aside, one of the women on the way home in the car asked me if I had children, and I said no, and she said “I see two little girls, with jet black hair, and fair skin. They will be born very close together, so when you give birth to one, you will be pregnant again soon after”. She said the girls will be really healthy and will have no problems but they will have alot of energy and run me ragged. Anyway this is exactly what another clairvoyant told me 2 years ago. She didn’t tell me about girls but she said about the age thing being born close together, and the fact there would be 2. The woman who told me today also looked at my arm, and there are some creases on the wrist that she can read, and she said that the first time falling pregnant will be hard, but the second time will be very easy. She also said that she saw me around the age I am now, like when I have the kids I don’t look any different to now, so she said it will happen quite soon.

It was an extra bit of info and quite poignant I thought to where I have just come from. Virtually the moment I stopped trying I got this information.

And the good thing about finally changing my mind to think about getting on with my life is that I’m not hung up on that info she gave me. I feel like I’m ready to get on with my life and I’m excited about my business, and I know I won’t be thinking and waiting in the back of my mind. So the right time to give me that information was now.

I really feel like since I made my choice, everything has just fallen into place for me. It really is a wonderful feeling. I don’t feel as if I’m fighting something now, I feel as if there is a path laid out ahead for me that I can walk without falling over along the way. Somehow I took a detour but I’m now where I am meant to be.

During the week I talked with my friend Jo, who suggested we go have a bbq this saturday with some of our other friends. I called her and got voicemail on Friday. I messaged her on Friday night, and by Saturday I had given up. She’s one of those people who has a mobile phone but usually it’s in the trunk of her car, in the bottom of her handbag or some other place, either on, or off. I really don’t know why she has one in the first place and it’s quite annoying trying to contact her.

So anyway Yasu and I had pretty much given up on the bbq, shame really as he took a day off especially for it. When I woke up this morning Yasu suggested we go have a bbq at a park near our house overlooking a river, and I agreed as it was meant to be a nice sunny day. I went back to bed and woke up about 11am by which time it was too late to get ready as we had to buy meat and stuff, so Yasu just said to me that I should have a rest.

Later on we went out shopping and found that a Diner had opened up in our shopping centre. It’s called Jimmy Dean’s Diner, and the theme is 50’s rock n’roll era. There is a statue of Elvis out the front that people stand and take photo’s with. When you walk in, Marilyn Monroe is standing there with a sign that says “please wait to be seated” and her dress is blowing up in the air. There is rock n’roll memorabilia all over the walls, a jukebox, and 2 huge plasma screens showing non stop music from the 50’s to the 90’s. It’s a really great atmosphere.

So we went in and we both decided to have a Spider (or what American’s would call an icecream soda). I had red creaming soda and Yasu had lemonade. Mine seemed to explode when the icecream went in but boy was it delicious!! I also ordered some Memphis Fries for us to share. They were flat crispy chips covered in bacon pieces, cheese and bbq sauce. To die for!! It was sooo yum. It was so great to just spend time together and have a nice afternoon snack. We both really enjoyed ourselves and said we should do it more often. We spend time at home together but we rarely go out for a coffee or a snack like we did when we were dating, and It’s really nice.

Yet another great reason not to have kids, I get my husbands attention 100%. I guess since I stopped trying to have kids I’ve found a whole lot of positives on why it’s great not to have kids. No offence to those reading that do have kids, I just thought my life wasn’t worth living if I didn’t have kids but I’ve found that’s not true.

Anyway, I had a great date with my husband today.