Kelly Azuma

When I first started out on my spiritual journey, having learnt Reiki and Massage I went about setting up my own home based business. As I started learning and gradually came to realise that I was a healer, I set aside a room in our house and called it my “healing room”. As it so happens for some reason we had painted that room a kind of grape-purple, the same as our bedroom, but we didn’t know why. Purple is a colour that resonates strongly with the spiritual world, and in particular Archangel Michael. I didn’t know that at the time, but for some reason it seemed meant to be.

At the end of last year, having gotten my room ready with a bed, and a table and all the basic requirements, I really wanted to start accepting clients. I went to a local reader who told me that I “couldn’t be a healer” right then because I “didn’t have enough wisdom”. I was really deflated, as I had already ordered my business cards and set up my website. I really lost confidence after that, believing myself to be “not good enough”. I still went on learning and discovering but I put my thoughts about healing others on the back-burner.

Through my own illness over the last year and a miscarriage or two, I have had quite alot of experience dealing with pain and sadness. It’s not as if I feel that before was any less, but I had a period of intense growth from then to now.

Today I went to a Fairie workshop by the ocean with a group of women I know. Another woman came who is a friend of one of the women and she is clairvoyant and also a reflexologist and intuitive. The two women who run the fairie workshop are both clairvoyant and around my age. It really was a great day and we discovered how to initiate contact with the fairies, how to attract them to your life/home/garden, how to build a relationship with them, and how to manifest with them.

One of the meditations we did, I was drawn to my healing room in my mind’s eye and I was told that “now is the time”. Remember how I said I was looking for a job so I can save money to go to Japan? Well I was told that it will be my job. The jobs I applied for I won’t get because the healing room is my job, and I am meant to go forward with healing others from now. It really came out of the blue for me but it felt and feels so right. I also realised I now have the confidence to go ahead with it.

I spoke to some of the other ladies about this revelation and they were horrified that another clairvoyant had said what she did to me, and said that I should have started healing others when I wanted to because everyone is different and everyone is still learning, no matter how experienced they are. I also felt like I was meant to have this conversation, a few of the ladies gave me a lot of encouragement and support about this particular topic and also a couple of the clairvoyant ladies told me that is what I am meant to be doing, and in the future I will also teach.

One of the workshop teachers will also become my teacher soon, as she told me that “I am ready” to use my clairvoyance but I need to be taught how. She said I have Angels and Fairies all around me and that my crown chakra is so bright and open. (Actually quite a few people have said that to me about my crown chakra).

So In the next few weeks I will be organising some lessons with one of the ladies which I am really looking forward to. This week I will be spending my time rearranging my healing room. I have a chest of drawers in there that is serving as a table, but I actually just bought a desk to go in there, so I have to sort it all out and get ready for clients. It’s so exciting and I feel like this is so right!! I can finally use my business cards and website.

As an aside, one of the women on the way home in the car asked me if I had children, and I said no, and she said “I see two little girls, with jet black hair, and fair skin. They will be born very close together, so when you give birth to one, you will be pregnant again soon after”. She said the girls will be really healthy and will have no problems but they will have alot of energy and run me ragged. Anyway this is exactly what another clairvoyant told me 2 years ago. She didn’t tell me about girls but she said about the age thing being born close together, and the fact there would be 2. The woman who told me today also looked at my arm, and there are some creases on the wrist that she can read, and she said that the first time falling pregnant will be hard, but the second time will be very easy. She also said that she saw me around the age I am now, like when I have the kids I don’t look any different to now, so she said it will happen quite soon.

It was an extra bit of info and quite poignant I thought to where I have just come from. Virtually the moment I stopped trying I got this information.

And the good thing about finally changing my mind to think about getting on with my life is that I’m not hung up on that info she gave me. I feel like I’m ready to get on with my life and I’m excited about my business, and I know I won’t be thinking and waiting in the back of my mind. So the right time to give me that information was now.

I really feel like since I made my choice, everything has just fallen into place for me. It really is a wonderful feeling. I don’t feel as if I’m fighting something now, I feel as if there is a path laid out ahead for me that I can walk without falling over along the way. Somehow I took a detour but I’m now where I am meant to be.

During the week I talked with my friend Jo, who suggested we go have a bbq this saturday with some of our other friends. I called her and got voicemail on Friday. I messaged her on Friday night, and by Saturday I had given up. She’s one of those people who has a mobile phone but usually it’s in the trunk of her car, in the bottom of her handbag or some other place, either on, or off. I really don’t know why she has one in the first place and it’s quite annoying trying to contact her.

So anyway Yasu and I had pretty much given up on the bbq, shame really as he took a day off especially for it. When I woke up this morning Yasu suggested we go have a bbq at a park near our house overlooking a river, and I agreed as it was meant to be a nice sunny day. I went back to bed and woke up about 11am by which time it was too late to get ready as we had to buy meat and stuff, so Yasu just said to me that I should have a rest.

Later on we went out shopping and found that a Diner had opened up in our shopping centre. It’s called Jimmy Dean’s Diner, and the theme is 50’s rock n’roll era. There is a statue of Elvis out the front that people stand and take photo’s with. When you walk in, Marilyn Monroe is standing there with a sign that says “please wait to be seated” and her dress is blowing up in the air. There is rock n’roll memorabilia all over the walls, a jukebox, and 2 huge plasma screens showing non stop music from the 50’s to the 90’s. It’s a really great atmosphere.

So we went in and we both decided to have a Spider (or what American’s would call an icecream soda). I had red creaming soda and Yasu had lemonade. Mine seemed to explode when the icecream went in but boy was it delicious!! I also ordered some Memphis Fries for us to share. They were flat crispy chips covered in bacon pieces, cheese and bbq sauce. To die for!! It was sooo yum. It was so great to just spend time together and have a nice afternoon snack. We both really enjoyed ourselves and said we should do it more often. We spend time at home together but we rarely go out for a coffee or a snack like we did when we were dating, and It’s really nice.

Yet another great reason not to have kids, I get my husbands attention 100%. I guess since I stopped trying to have kids I’ve found a whole lot of positives on why it’s great not to have kids. :) No offence to those reading that do have kids, I just thought my life wasn’t worth living if I didn’t have kids but I’ve found that’s not true.

Anyway, I had a great date with my husband today. :)

If you’re not familiar with this post then please read it first.

Well my week was going swimmingly, my year in fact, until I got her email a couple of days ago. Why she chose to email me and not Yasu is just another mind boggling fact. Her email to me:

Hi! Kelly!! How’s it going?

I’m good!

I want to meet you next february.
How about your plan?

I hope that I can meet you.

take care!

Well, reading this gives me an inkling she may have used an online translator. “I want to meet you next february” reminds me of the verb 会いたい and when literally translated would come up on an online translator as “meet”, when we would usually say, I want to see you, or I’m looking forward to seeing you. As well as “how about your plan”, might have started off as あなたの予定はどう？ or something similar.

So last year when Yasu told her to learn English and she agreed, meant basically nothing, if she did indeed use an online translator. The other thing that leads me to believe that she did use and online translator is her lack of response. I sent her an email like this:

Hi S,

February is the hottest time of the year in Australia, the temperature will be between 39 ~ 43 degrees almost every day. We don’t have airconditioning, and the room you will stay in will be very hot. Is it ok for you?

And basically I have received no response at all. That was 2 days ago. So trying to decipher what that says in an online translator would look something like this:

2月は39 ~の間にオーストラリアの年の最も熱い時、温度であるほとんど毎日43度である。 私達に空気調節がないし、あなたがとどまる部屋は非常に熱い。 それはあなたのために良いか

I put the above into an online translator and that is what I got. It could be understandable, but a little confusing.

Anyways, so Yasu and I talked about her coming again, and I just get this sinking feeling that she will come you know? He totally forgot the way he and I felt last time, and I retold him everything and he just said to me, well, I’ll tell her she has to study Aussie culture and if she does that she can come. But what if the Aussie culture she studies says nothing really about what she should be like? So now I have to write a list of to do’s and not do’s and I just feel like she’ll know it’s me who complained, not Yasu. I know it’s his high school friend and I know they are friends BUT.

She didn’t contact me all year, not even once to say hello, didn’t contact Yasu either. Then out of the blue she emails me and says she wants to come in Feb. Well to me that’s using someone. I wouldn’t do that to anyone!! Mind you I’m not a user like that. But it gets me offside from the beginning.

So while I’m compiling my list of do’s and dont’s, there is silence from her end. Haha…I’m wondering if that is silence in that she is thinking “holy shite, 43 degrees I’m definitely not going there”. You know what? I hope she comes in November like she usually does because I WON’T BE HERE!!! And he’ll have to put up with her himself!! hahaha Wouldn’t that be a beauty.

I wouldn’t even bother telling her, we would just be like ships passing in the night, and when she gets here Yasu can say “Oh, Kelly is in Japan for a month”. Hah! But only in my very good luck would that happen. I guess I’ll have to wait and see. Fingers crossed. :)

I know, it’s a crap situation, Yasu WON’T say she can’t come here basically because it’s HIS friend, not that I would inflict a crappy friend on anyone, but he just thinks it’s still an obligation thing because of that stupid Japanese social culture crap.

So I know my friends are thinking, they wish Yasu would get a backbone, but in his mind he’s trying to do right by me and by her. The only good thing so far is that she hasn’t mentioned bringing her friends with her. Amen to that.

This time I’m going to get him to tell her that she has to catch the bus and train everywhere instead of relying on us to take her, we are not her taxi driver. Also WE are going to enjoy that 1 week break and do some things by ourselves, so she can go and do it by herself whatever touristy things she wants to do.

I don’t like feeling “hate” but I really feel close to it when I think of her.

Yesterday I had “one of those days”. It all started out ok actually. I had a good day at home and got a few things sorted out. Then it came time to start making dinner and I had planned to make lasagne. I got a large pack of beef mince (1kg) last time and I had stuck it in the freezer at the time.

Well yesterday morning I asked Yasu to take the meat out of the freezer to defrost. When I started to get ready for making the lasagne, I looked everywhere to try and find where he had put the mince meat but I couldn’t find it. I was totally at a loss. So I called him at work to ask him and he told me “oh, I put it outside, on the bbq table”. What the?? Who puts it outside in the middle of winter? Not as if there is any sun around to defrost it. Anyways, so I go outside and there is the mince on the bbq table, ripped open in the middle by our neighbourhood cat – I’m supposing – with a big chunk out the middle and all the rest of it thoroughly rotten!

Boy was I so mad!! I said a few curses about him, I tell you. I was just so mad, because I had been looking forward to having lasagne you know? And then to find out that he had done that. Then he rings me back about 5 minutes later and asked me what I was going to cook, and I didn’t know, and when I said about the meat all he could say was “too bad”. Well after that comment I felt like slamming him, I really did!! That made me madder, that comment.

So anyways, before I discovered that I had made a cheesecake for dessert, thankfully I discovered the meat after, because I probably wouldn’t have made it otherwise.

So I dug around in the freezer and found some more beef mince but only a .5kg size one, so I thought, well I’m gonna make lasagne, at least I will have lasagne, there might not be enough for him, but that’s “too bad”.

Anyways so I made a nice lasagne and there was enough for him and me, so all turned out well, but sometimes I just have to say, where was his brain?? I don’t know where he got that stupid idea from.

So here are a couple of photo’s I took :)

Rare Lemon cheesecake with whipped cream piped around the edge,
and grated chocolate for decoration

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In other news, I finally discovered the secret to perfect pork crackling! I cooked a pork roast today and thanks to my new cookbook I found that you have to set the oven to 250 degrees, rub salt and oil in the deeply scored pork flesh, cook it for 30 minutes and then reduce the temperature to 180 degrees. It worked!! And it got so smokey in our house the fire alarms started to go off!! haha. Yasu had to run around and open the windows haha.

I also made homemade apple sauce to go with the pork crackling and boy was it yum!!! I can’t believe how good it tastes. Luckily I took a picture of both for you, my darling readers :)

That pork crackle was so crunchy and melted in our mouths! It was only a small pork roast, just enough for the 2 of us, and I cut the crackle off and put it on the plate (the photo).

My MIL always asks to have a pork roast when she comes to Aus (she hasn’t been here yet but she wants to), so now I can tell her with confidence YES I can cook it for you when you come :)))