The title of this post has been my life for the past week and a half.

A week and a half ago I went to one of my classes at the community centre (CC from now on), and there is a woman there that often talks about how she has “negative energy” in her house and lots of bad spirits coming in and out and how it makes her feel unwell.

Well, I never really took much notice of her because basically I thought she should come to the conclusion herself whether or not to get her house cleared. Anyway, halfway through the class I started to get lights in front of my eyes – a sign to me that I’m about to get a migraine – and my head hurt and I felt sick, then I couldn’t see properly. I stumbled out of the CC and headed home and went straight to bed.

I was sick like that until Saturday morning when I did my cards. The first card I got was “Shield Yourself”. As in, shield yourself from low entities/negative energy surrounding you. Aha I thought maybe that is what was happening.

I did abit of asking to Michael, asked him to clear me and cut my cords, and low and behold that migraine went within the hour. It was clear to me then, that I had picked up some low entities around the woman at the CC.

So anyway I didn’t think anymore about it and on Sunday afternoon I got comfy in my healing room and decided to have a big meditation, put on my Eye of the Wolf meditation cd and went into a deep deep meditation.

But something happened during the meditation, that I started seeing a movie of a woman’s body being dumped on the side of the road. Then I started to see from the beginning how she was murdered, what happened, and how it got to where she ended up. I felt the woman’s emotions as she was murdered, and even now the panic she feels because the murderer was never found.

I really didn’t want to see it but somehow I couldn’t free myself from the meditation. When it ended and I came out I was so emotional and I couldn’t stop crying. I also was really upset about what I had seen.

Well that night when I got into bed, I then got a different murder play in front of my eyes and then lots of violent scenes where people had suicided.

I tried to ask them to go away but they kept coming and coming. Every day more visions of murders and suicides. It has been horrific for me because I don’t like seeing it and obviously feeling the victim’s fear and pain when they die is terrible.

Anyway, I managed to get a hold of my teacher on Wednesday and she was pretty alarmed but said it had also happened to her when she was starting off and that I was beginning to develop as a medium. That in itself alarms me as I’m happy being clairvoyant and never wanted to be a medium.

But anyway, it’s a natural progression according to Sarah…however I seem to be progressing at a very fast rate, faster than she expected.

So on Wednesday night she phoned me and we talked and when we got off the phone I went to my healing room and she went to hers. She did a clearing of me, basically sending all the lost spirits/cling-ons into the light, and sending me lots of healing. I was meditating and asking Michael to cut my cords and to protect me in a bubble of white light.

Well, during the meditation at first I thought it was going to go into a murder scene but I felt a “block”, and it was like there was a wall beside me that it couldn’t penetrate. I’ve never felt that before but I knew it was Sarah’s work.

Anyway, right at the end I had a vision of a beautiful mermaid with red hair, it was amazing!

So anyway, Sarah called me yesterday to check on me, and I’m really good except I keep getting headaches, keep asking for my cords to be cut, it works for a while and then comes back. So Sarah suggested I go see her on Friday to have some sessions with her as she wants me to learn how to set my boundaries and she wants to do some work with me. I’m really glad about that, because I wasn’t expecting the onslaught of spirits I would be getting.

Sarah said because I’m doing so many readings every day and tuning into other people’s energy, I’m prone to picking up any low energy hanging around them, so I have to protect myself really well.

Anyway…luckily I haven’t seen any more murders or suicides which is great though. I’m not strong enough to deal with that stuff. And I so do not want to end up like the woman on that show Medium! How does she do that??? I was a total wreck.

Tonight I’m going to a meditation with Sarah and some people I know from her classes and after that she is going to do a channelling, Abraham style. She has done it before but I haven’t been before so it will be interesting!! I can’t wait to be able to ask a question…that is just a spin-out :)

So I will tell you all about it later!