Kelly Azuma

My sister-in-law is a beautiful soul. That is Yasu’s sister, A. Her and I have always gotten on like a house on fire. We always email each other, write letters and send gifts to each other during the year, but in general I get on better with her than any family that are blood related, and consider her a real sister.

Early last year she suffered what the doctors thought was a stroke, she went numb down one side of her body and was hospitalised, and required numerous hours of rehabilitation.

Then, earlier this year, just before her 30th birthday she suffered the same thing again and this time the doctors found out that it wasn’t actually a stroke she was having but a nerve at the top of her spinal cord was acting up. I’m not sure what the disease is called, but basically when the nerve acts up it sends a shockwave through the body and causes stroke-like symptoms of temporary paralysis down one side of the body.

The doctor’s said there is no cure for the disease and to combat it, she would have to inject herself with medicine twice per day for the rest of her life, and if that isn’t enough, she would still suffer these stroke-like happenings up to 6 times per year!

Anyway, last night we called mum and dad in Japan as we hadn’t called them for a while. We both had a sense that something was wrong because A usually messages Yasu for his birthday and she didn’t.

We were shocked to learn that A has been in hospital for the last 3 weeks. She had another happening which has left her blind in her left eye! :(

She’s in a major hospital in Obihiro, one which doesn’t have much experience in treating her disease. She is being treated by steroids through an IV, but that hospital only has experience of treating steroids by IV for 3 weeks maximum and now she is on her 4th week, so is actually making history at the hospital in some awful way.

When we got off the phone I just burst into tears because I couldn’t hold it in anymore. She’s over there being so brave, even when she has lost half her eyesight. She’s only 30 for crying out loud!! This is so not fair!!! Why is such a beautiful person like A going through all this shit??? :(

There’s nothing we can do from here, the only thing I’m doing every chance I get is sending reiki long distance and hope that it can help somehow some way… I wish I could do more.

I don’t know why the good people in this world have to go through so much shit. I look at the evil people in my family and they seem to be getting off scott-free and yet, someone so nice, and still with the world at their feet has to suffer in this way.

:*(

I know life is not easy but why does it have to be so bloody cruel?

Ugh…what a start to the weekend eh. I ended up being rushed to emergency at 3am this morning because my stomach and esophagus was so painful and uncomfortable I couldn’t take it anymore. The hospital was full, so I had to wait 3 and a half hours for a bed. I was treated for obs and given a horrible numbing drink to have but it didn’t make any difference. I finally got a bed at 7:30 am and then the doctor came and said she couldn’t carry out any of the important tests at the hospital because they don’t have the means to.

But they did some blood tests and determined that it is an inflammation of the esophagus and stomach, but as to what causes it at this moment they don’t know until I go back to see my doctor.

They think it might be Helicobacter Pylori (a bug that upsets the lining of the stomach) and can be cured with Antibiotics, or it could be more serious. Firstly they will test for H. Pylori, and if it is negative I will have to be scheduled for a Gastroscopy. But because of the long waiting list, even with Private Health Insurance, I could be waiting up to 4 weeks for the procedure.

:(

Here I was thinking I couldn’t live one more day with this horrible feeling and now I might have to live up to 4 weeks or more with it. Sucks! What good is a hospital if it can’t even do a scope or a simple breath test for H. Pylori.

Basically, I have acid and burning in my throat and stomach, a continual lump in my throat that feels like a bubble when I swallow, shooting pains from the end of my esophagus across my stomach and copious amounts of wind and wind pain. It makes going out anywhere impossible and of course, living every minute is pure hell, because every minute of the day is so uncomfortable and painful.

If only my doctor had of looked into it instead of fobbing me off with pills, it might have been sorted out, it definitely got worse this week and I couldn’t take the pills he gave me because they gave me diarrhea.

Anyway, so that’s me. Mum’s coming over tomorrow to see me and spend some time. I haven’t seen her for a few weeks as she has been minding my sister’s house and her kids while my sister and her hubby went away on holiday up north. Even though I’m 32, there’s still something comforting about having mum around when I don’t feel well.

I ended up sitting in Emergency for 3 and a half hours last night. Not for me, for Yasu. Read more

Yesterday I had an appointment at the hospital, to get the results from my last endoscopy. Everything came back clear including the former stomach tumor which had now shrunk so small that it’s hardly even there, and the liver nodule which the doctor says is benign as well. I’m so happy about that! It’s been 21 months of hell, and it’s finally over. I’m so glad not to have to go backwards and forwards to the hospital any more. I’m finally discharged, and can get on with my life! :)

All this week I have been reading ‘The Law of Attraction’ that I bought before going away but didn’t read. I decided to make time every day and sit down to read some of the book. It has really opened my eyes, and I really should have read it before ‘Ask and it is Given’. I’m finding it’s really helping with my outlook on my life, and it has given me a lot of motivation too!

I haven’t been on the computer much lately as I’ve been out in the front garden pulling out the weeds that took over the garden while I was away. I’ve also been sorting out my healing room, and hopefully this weekend, which is a long weekend for the Queen’s birthday, Yasu can help me shift my desk in there, so I can have a place to go think my thoughts and put my Law of Attraction plans into practice!!

I also have a workshop coming up with a friend, and a group that I joined, for Lightworkers in Perth,  is now starting to have some meetings in the near future, so it looks like I will be able to mix with a lot of like-minded people, which I’m really excited about! There will be opportunities to give and receive healings too, so I’m happy about that.

I also am a part of a friend’s ongoing philosophy group which is meeting early next month, so lots of opportunities are falling within my reach because of Abraham – thankyou!

It has been really great to get outside and connect with nature, even if it’s just pulling out weeds at the moment, it’s nice to breath in the fresh air, and communicate with the garden fairies. :)

I’ll leave you all with a pic of my ornamental peach tree that decided to flower even though someone had stood on it and broken off it’s only stem (containing the flowers), and a quote I found from confucius that mirrors my sentiments exactly.

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it. ~Confucius

Whenever my mum goes into hospital, she ends up getting an infection on top of what is already wrong with her, and doesn’t come out before 3 or 4 weeks are up.

This time I decided that every night I would send some Reiki healing to her (distance healing) with an outcome for the next day.

I started sending the healing on Sunday night. Yesterday I went in and found her up and walking around despite just having had major kidney surgery. While I was there, to my surprise, they unplugged her from all her cords and monitors, so that she only had a drain in.

Last night I came home and did another powerful Reiki healing with a vision of her leaving by Thursday this week.

Imagine my surprise when my sister called me at lunch time today to tell me that my mum would be released from hospital tomorrow! (wednesday)

I haven’t said anything about healing to my family as they are not really believers, and I don’t want to take any credit, I just wanted to speed up her healing so she wouldn’t be wallowing around in hospital. I am really glad I could do my part to send her home early, and not only that, to help her get better in record time.

My mum will come and stay with us for a few days as my brother can’t take care of my mum, and his girlfriend will have no idea what to do if mum feels ill or needs help with something.
Yasu and my mum get on fine, so he never makes a fuss, in fact we have a guest room in our house that was made for when mum comes to stay sometimes.