Quick catchup on what’s been happening in my life. 
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- I went to Yoga on Wednesday night and the teacher, Sui, told me I should give it a go anyway because when she was in a car accident and broke her wrist and had whiplash she still did yoga, and it actually made her better and strengthened her wrist and neck. So I did give it a go, and it actually wasn’t too bad. I didn’t push myself, only did as much as I could.
- Halfway through the yoga I was called into the AGM that was happening in the next room and stood for election onto the community centre committee, and won! I was sworn in that night and am now officially a member of the committee. Our next meeting is on 18th November to decide on a few projects coming up and to set who will be doing what. I’ve already learned a whole heap of stuff, it’s really interesting.
- One of the women in my life skills course, I found out today, is a clairvoyant and a healer. It also turned out she is going away and needed someone to stay at her beautiful house up in the hills for 4 days (weekend) while her and her husband go away. She has a mini-farm with sheep, dogs, a horse, goats, chooks, and cats and it overlooks the whole of Perth. Anyway, Yasu and I will be staying at her house over the weekend she is away, so it will be like a mini holiday of our own! Add to the fact I just love animals, so it really will be a pleasure.
- I have also been talking with a friend in Melbourne and we have made plans for me to go there in February to go to the Soundwave Music Festival together. Our favourite band, Faith No More, is playing after reuniting again, so it will be a blast. I will be staying for a few days so I can hang out with him and his wife and their two young sons who I am yet to meet! It’s been about 7 years since my last visit.
- As well as that, we are heading to Adelaide for Christmas, driving over, to stay with a high school friend of mine who just moved there with her partner, because of his work. So it’s all very exciting!
- Melbourne Cup Day is coming up on Tuesday and I’ve been invited to my Reiki Master’s house for a Cup Day party, all our ‘spooky’ friends will be there, so it will be a fun day!! Plus which one of us will be the better psychic and pick the winning horse??
- I’ve put in an early order for a good pair of sunglasses for xmas from Yasu… anyone have any ideas about good brands? I’m totally new to this… I’ve never owned a really good pair, but with the sun so bright now, and summer on the horizon, squinting is making the skin around my eyes go wrinkly so I really need to get some good ones, the darker the better.
- On the weight front, I’ve dropped another 3kg and 5cm from my waist. I’ve had some small-er clothes in my wardrobe for a while, and I can now fit into them, so yay. I haven’t really changed what I have been eating consciously, but I noticed once I started drinking 2.5 litres of water per day, and walking 3.2km per day, the craving for sweets has gone out the window. I also eat far less than I used to, it’s as if my body needs less, and I definitely can feel now when I’ve had enough.
- I bought a papa-san chair online, you know those round chairs on a frame you can sink right into? I bought one from someone else, but it was practically brand new, hardly ever used, beautiful black suede and so big and comfy. I have been meditating in it every day, and it’s sooo good. I mean I can get really comfy and the meditation is just so enhanced by that. And it was only $30 so a very good buy!
- Somehow I keep winning competitions. I won some energy saving lightbulbs last week, and this week I won a potato chips competition I entered online and received a big box of mixed potato chips from the company! I also entered another competition, and was one of 400 people worldwide to win a bunch of cool prizes which I was just notified about last night, so I’m waiting to receive them by courier!
- I felt it was time to come off the anti-depressants (Luvox) I have been on for the past 9 years. In the beginning I was taking 11 different pills in the morning and 11 pills at night. 8 of those were anti-depressants because at 22 I was suicidal after a personal incident. From there it all just snowballed and I ended up with all these pills after seeing a psychiatrist. Over the last few years I’ve taken myself off most of them, and have, for the last 2 years been on only 1 anti-depressant per day. That’s a big step down from 22 pills per day. Anyway, I felt that now is the time to come off totally, but with anti-depressants you can’t stop just like that because the withdrawal symptoms are hell. If even I missed one pill by forgetting to take it, the next day I would suffer hellish withdrawal symptoms until I took the pill and even then it would take half a day to work. The symptoms are feeling like you’re going to vomit, or actually vomiting, dizzyness, headaches, anger, extreme sleepiness, nausea etc. It’s just like with any other drug. So bit by bit I’ve been coming off. It means for me, cutting the pill by myself unless I want the rigmarole of buying a lesser dose pill, but instead I just cut off a bit, one pill for me is 100 miligrams, so cut the end off it becomes 80 mg, then abit more 70, etc, until now I’ve got it down to 50. I’m hoping within the next week or so I can get it down somewhere to 30. Hopefully by mid-november I can be off them altogether. It’s somewhat fast the way I’m doing it, usually it would be slower than this, but I’ve been giving myself reiki every day and it really helps with the symptoms, so I’m not feeling it as much. Also, when I get determined about something, nothing is going to make me stop, so the willpower that I need to get me through is strong, thankfully.
Phew!!
Along with all the affirmations I’ve been doing lately, I’ve been wondering if I can think my body well, then can I think my body thin.
Searching on Abraham Hicks website, I came across a program called Think and Get Slim.
The blurb on their website says this:
In workshops held between 2006 & 2008, Abraham responded numerous times to questions about losing weight. This presentation was compiled from ten of those workshops, and constitutes the most effective guide to natural weight loss ever created. Now you can learn, directly from Source, how to guide your thoughts to take advantage of the awesome leverage provided by the Law of Attraction.
Chapters include:
- The Vibration Of Thriving
- Food Is Your Friend
- Allowing Your Perfect Body
- See And Like What You See
- Ignore The Experts, Warming Up To Eating
- Tell A Different Story
- Through The Eyes of Source
- Feeling Good Is The Work
- Forget Diet And Exercise.
It sounded really good to me!! I’ve ordered a copy, but until it gets here, I was wondering, what can I do Now, that will help?
Along with loving myself and thinking good things about myself, a couple of days ago I started to also say, I am thin, my body is thin. I also imagined myself with a flat tummy, going to any store and trying on all these clothes. I say to myself, I can buy any clothes I want. I can wear a bikini at the beach. I am thin. I have a beautiful body.
I also stopped thinking of food as my enemy, and stopped telling myself off if I eat something.
This internal dialogue would go:
I’m hungry
No you’re not, you just think you are
I wonder what I can eat, hmm this chocolate will do
No! Chocolate is bad for you, you don’t want to put on weight
But it’s only a bit…
You have no self control
I don’t care
You are such a fatty
Well, whatever, I’ll exercise later
*bad feelings*
But now my internal dialogue looks something like this
I think I might have a snack
Oh, this chocolate bar looks good
Food is my friend, I love food!
Ahh this is lovely, sitting down out here in the sunshine with a
choccy
*feeling good, content*
Well, after only 3 days of this, I stepped on the scales today and I’ve lost 3kg!
When I first got into Abraham I wondered how I was going to get the art of allowing right. I’m such an over-thinker, and that has been a detriment to my life at times. But somehow I’ve managed to turn that overthinking into a good thing!! I’ve turned those nasty negative thoughts into a continual flow of good ones, and it’s reinforcing how I want my life to be.
I will keep you posted on further weight loss!!
Yes, that is what Yasu is giving me now.
When I got home from having acupuncture, he picked me up from the train station. He asked how my day was then I told him about having some seeds put in my ear by the Chinese doctor, on the acupressure points for losing weight, and that she gave me some herbal medicine to speed up my metabolism.
He ranted and raved because I’m already on the Gabriel Method. I had to come off it while I was in hospital and I haven’t started it back again as I was worried about how my stomach would cope.
He thinks I start things and never finish them. I agree. But my only comeback is that I’m an Aries and I can’t help it. The other thing is that the Chinese medicine worked so well, straight away, that I’m more inclined to follow their way of dieting too. The digestive enzymes I was taking with every meal I think, might be the reason why my stomach troubles came to a head over that short time I was on the diet. I am just guessing.
He promptly started to give me the silent treatment. And went to bed without speaking to me all night. I really hate that.
Considering he hardly ever gave me verbal support about my weight loss I think it’s pretty damn good of me to even stay on a diet/life change for so long. He wants to have kids but he doesn’t want to do anything about it. Ugh. Men.
So I’m sitting up here drinking a chai latte and reading twitter and facebook. My two new favourite past times. I feel like I have offended a friend with my assumptions (previous post about comments) and I’m having a shitty day in general.
So that’s my rant.
Today I woke up feeling better about myself, actually roused myself to get out of bed at 11:30 am so that’s doing far better time-wise.
I got up, did the dishes and sat out on the patio reading a book for a while. Yasu came home at 4:30 and we watched Sumo for a while. His favourite is watching Yamamotoyama, ugh, he is just so big, all he needs to do is push the other wrestler and he falls out of the ring, and Y gets another victory under his belt. At that weight/size you need do no fancy moves to win. I’m only surprised he’s not a Yokozuna by now.
Anyway, about 5pm we left to go out and do some grocery shopping. We stopped into Jeanswest (a jeans store) and bought a shirt for Yasu, quite nice and it was on special too. Then we went and did some grocery shopping, and stopped in at my friends cafe.
She is currently having staff problems, and because I used to work there, she asked me to come back and work for her on Thursday nights and Saturdays which I agreed to. As I’ve written before I sometimes just go and work there to help because I like it, for fun. This is actually a paying gig, but I would work for free just because I love it.
She asked me if I felt like hitting the gym tomorrow morning and I agreed to that too. She was sad because I had been depressed and didn’t let her know…she wanted to help me. Nice of her but I just felt like sticking around. I’m sure the exercise will be good for my brain as well as my body. I have to go shopping after and buy some Easter eggs for Yasu. They’re currently 20% off and I want to get some while they’re still on special, that he doesn’t know about. We already bought eggs for our friends and family tonight, so at least that’s out of the way! I can’t believe how expensive easter eggs are this year. I guess it’s a sign of the times. Chocolate will no longer be an every day item, it will be relagated to the luxury purchases.
Not that I care, I’m happy eating my home made rocky road.
I also lost another 1 kg, so that’s great! Tonight at the shops I got compliments galore from people I bumped into so that’s a bit of a boost too. There’s also a rather horny hubby who can’t keep his hands off me. That’s only a few kilo’s down. Can’t imagine what it will be like when I have my Jennifer Hawkins body!
I’m reading a really good book at the moment called “Passing For Thin – Losing half my weight and finding myself” by Frances Kuffel. It is really an interesting read, and I found alot of her feelings I totally identify with. It’s amazing how non-fat people make you feel so low just for not looking like them. I’m really getting some inspiration from this woman’s journey, she’s amazing.
Well, I better call it a night. I’m keeping up with my blogging lately, must be I have more to say lately.
Night all
After our trip to the Swan Valley on Friday we basically just stayed at home for Saturday and Sunday. I wanted Yasu to have alot of rest and relaxation to make up for the 7 day week working days that had been going on up to this point. We made the most of it.
We basically ended up getting up about 8am, having breakfast, watching some Japanese tv and then about 11am ended up having a hirune for a couple of hours. It was really nice to just lay around in bed together, talk, laugh and joke. We haven’t done that for a very long time!
We also had time for some serious talks on life/death and what we would do if either of us left this world too early. I guess it was nice to see each other’s points of view on the subject.
Last night I made some pasta bake for dinner and some rocky road for dessert which was yum. While Yasu watched Tenchijiin, I sat out on the patio under the stars with the senkou and my radio. I watched the clouds float past and I saw alot of images in the clouds relevant to what was happening in my life, plus a few past events. Very interesting.
Tonight I have belly dancing and meditation, so I will go off now and cook dinner for Yasu. I always leave dinner for him on Monday nights so he can come home and not have to prepare it himself after a hard day’s work.
I’m finally feeling as if I’m getting the dance moves more in belly dancing, and after all these weeks of practice my body is starting to become more flexible and I feel like the moves are just coming to me, which is good. I really love belly dancing!
On a side note which i also wrote about on facebook, today is one month since I started the Gabriel Method and I am pleased to say i’ve lost 5cm from my waist, 4 cm from my hips, 1 cm from my chest, and 1.3 kg! I’m very happy with that result. I’m still going with it, I just thought I would report my progress thus far.
My previous post was about the Gabriel Method that I had just started out on. Yesterday I lost a total of 500 grams and today I stepped on the scales to find I had lost another 500 grams. A kilo in 2 days!
When I was listening to the meditation mp3 on my ipod last night and he was saying “your body wants to be thin” my pelvic and stomach area just started to get this really weird feeling and I felt as if something was activated. It kind of felt as if my sacral and solar plexus chakra had been opened. After that meditation yesterday and today I just slept like a log.
This morning I woke up at 7:30 am by myself, and I was so full of energy I had to get up and have breakfast! It’s so amazing I never wake up that early, I’m usually not a morning person at all.
I’m off to the hospital today to see about my stomach tumor so we’ll see what the day brings, but I just wanted to report on my good news. 1kg is not much when you want to lose 50kg I guess. Well I need to lose about 30 kg to be back to my old self but I thought while I was at it, why not shoot for a model’s body while I’m at it? Another 20 kg was added to my goal weight. If my body wants to be thin it will be so at it’s own approximation of thin so whatever weight I think of that is “thin” might be different in the end.
Have a great day people!
