Kelly Azuma

• I went to Yoga on Wednesday night and the teacher, Sui, told me I should give it a go anyway because when she was in a car accident and broke her wrist and had whiplash she still did yoga, and it actually made her better and strengthened her wrist and neck. So I did give it a go, and it actually wasn’t too bad. I didn’t push myself, only did as much as I could.
• Halfway through the yoga I was called into the AGM that was happening in the next room and stood for election onto the community centre committee, and won! I was sworn in that night and am now officially a member of the committee. Our next meeting is on 18^th November to decide on a few projects coming up and to set who will be doing what. I’ve already learned a whole heap of stuff, it’s really interesting.
• One of the women in my life skills course, I found out today,  is a clairvoyant and a healer. It also turned out she is going away and needed someone to stay at her beautiful house up in the hills for 4 days (weekend) while her and her husband go away. She has a mini-farm with sheep, dogs, a horse, goats, chooks, and cats and it overlooks the whole of Perth. Anyway, Yasu and I will be staying at her house over the weekend she is away, so it will be like a mini holiday of our own! Add to the fact I just love animals, so it really will be a pleasure.
• I have also been talking with a friend in Melbourne and we have made plans for me to go there in February to go to the Soundwave Music Festival together. Our favourite band, Faith No More, is playing after reuniting again, so it will be a blast. I will be staying for a few days so I can hang out with him and his wife and their two young sons who I am yet to meet! It’s been about 7 years since my last visit.
• As well as that, we are heading to Adelaide for Christmas, driving over, to stay with a high school friend of mine who just moved there with her partner, because of his work. So it’s all very exciting!
• Melbourne Cup Day is coming up on Tuesday and I’ve been invited to my Reiki Master’s house for a Cup Day party, all our ‘spooky’ friends will be there, so it will be a fun day!! Plus which one of us will be the better psychic and pick the winning horse??
• I’ve put in an early order for a good pair of sunglasses for xmas from Yasu… anyone have any ideas about good brands? I’m totally new to this… I’ve never owned a really good pair, but with the sun so bright now, and summer on the horizon, squinting is making the skin around my eyes go wrinkly so I really need to get some good ones, the darker the better.
• On the weight front, I’ve dropped another 3kg and 5cm from my waist. I’ve had some small-er clothes in my wardrobe for a while, and I can now fit into them, so yay. I haven’t really changed what I have been eating consciously, but I noticed once I started drinking 2.5 litres of water per day, and walking 3.2km per day, the craving for sweets has gone out the window. I also eat far less than I used to, it’s as if my body needs less, and I definitely can feel now when I’ve had enough.
• I bought a papa-san chair online, you know those round chairs on a frame you can sink right into? I bought one from someone else, but it was practically brand new, hardly ever used, beautiful black suede and so big and comfy. I have been meditating in it every day, and it’s sooo good. I mean I can get really comfy and the meditation is just so enhanced by that. And it was only $30 so a very good buy!
• Somehow I keep winning competitions. I won some energy saving lightbulbs last week, and this week I won a potato chips competition I entered online and received a big box of mixed potato chips from the company! I also entered another competition, and was one of 400 people worldwide to win a bunch of cool prizes which I was just notified about last night, so I’m waiting to receive them by courier!
• I felt it was time to come off the anti-depressants (Luvox) I have been on for the past 9 years. In the beginning I was taking 11 different pills in the morning and 11 pills at night. 8 of those were anti-depressants because at 22 I was suicidal after a personal incident. From there it all just snowballed and I ended up with all these pills after seeing a psychiatrist. Over the last few years I’ve taken myself off most of them, and have, for the last 2 years been on only 1 anti-depressant per day. That’s a big step down from 22 pills per day. Anyway, I felt that now is the time to come off totally, but with anti-depressants you can’t stop just like that because the withdrawal symptoms are hell. If even I missed one pill by forgetting to take it, the next day I would suffer hellish withdrawal symptoms until I took the pill and even then it would take half a day to work. The symptoms are feeling like you’re going to vomit, or actually vomiting, dizzyness, headaches, anger, extreme sleepiness, nausea etc. It’s just like with any other drug. So bit by bit I’ve been coming off. It means for me, cutting the pill by myself unless I want the rigmarole of buying a lesser dose pill, but instead I just cut off a bit, one pill for me is 100 miligrams, so cut the end off it becomes 80 mg, then abit more 70, etc, until now I’ve got it down to 50. I’m hoping within the next week or so I can get it down somewhere to 30. Hopefully by mid-november I can be off them altogether. It’s somewhat fast the way I’m doing it, usually it would be slower than this, but I’ve been giving myself reiki every day and it really helps with the symptoms, so I’m not feeling it as much. Also, when I get determined about something, nothing is going to make me stop, so the willpower that I need to get me through is strong, thankfully.

Phew!!

I went to Yoga on Wednesday night. The description on leaflet said “gentle exercise for the mind and body”, which was the reason I signed up in the first place. I was thinking easy peasy, meditation, new age, ohm-ing exercise. How hard could it be?

Very hard!!

What I didn’t expect was standing on one leg with the other leg pressed up to my chest for 3 minutes trying to breath in and out slowly.

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Balancing on one knee while I held the other leg out to the side for 3 minutes.

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Push-ups, dagwood dogs, and laughing babies!

Yes you heard me, those are all Yoga exercises. The laughing baby position is laying flat on your back with your knees up to your chest and pushing each leg out to the side as far as it will go, stretching the musles in your inner thigh. Babies do this all the time!

My stomach muscles are killing me, my lower back muscles are killing me, my whole body is sore. What gentle exercise????

Halfway through the one and a half hours I thought I would die. I was trying to keep myself going but the urge to quit was SO there. I stuck it out to the end though. Thankfully.

The end is the good part, the reward for going through hell. It’s meditation for 5 minutes in the dark room, laying down on the yoga mat, breathing in and ohm-ing, then sitting up and ohm-ing.

Despite all that, I will stay with it for the next 7 weeks. Yep, I’m a glutton for punishment. But hey, I can feel that this is working some muscles in there that need working, so I’ll give it a go.

Yasu went back to work today after I spent the weekend healing his leg. I had a really powerful healing for him last night, and was taken into the universal flow, it was so powerful my body was doing figure-8’s from the energy while I was holding his leg. He didn’t know what was happening but he figured it was all good and then this morning he got up and could walk like normal with no pain.

We did have a good weekend together though. We sat around and watched some tv, goofed around, laughed and joked and it was fun. I also went walking which is kind of turning into my love now. I just have this urge to go walking every day, it’s great!

So anyway, today was the day for enrolling in classes down at the community centre, so I walked up there and enrolled in Yoga, Drawing, and Cooking. On the way there I was walking along minding my own business when something hit my head (I was walking across a park), I looked up to see a massive Magpie flying over me and swooping down again. The bloody thing had pecked the back of my head!! God it hurt too!! It tried to swoop on me again and I threw my bag up in the air to try and shoo it off. I was terrified because I’ve heard of those crows attacking and pecking your eyes, but never a magpie. So after I shoo’d it with my bag a couple of times, it stayed away but boy did I hotfoot it across that oval!! haha. It must have looked funny but my head is still really sore and I’m so lucky it didn’t break the skin!

So anyway the courses all start next week. Drawing is on Monday at noon, Yoga is wednesday night, and Cooking is Thursday morning. In between that I have a pretty busy schedule with my weekend Psychic Development courses and I have made a few new friends in the area so I’m going to be doing some meet-ups this week and next week. My life has somehow just taken off!

Tomorrow I’m going to visit my mum, so I’m looking forward to catching up. The best thing I’ve learnt from Abraham in regards to my relationship with my family is that I can still have involvement with them without getting involved in their problems. I can see what they do, but It doesn’t have to affect me, and it’s true. It’s really working for me in that I no longer have any feelings about what they do, because they are doing it to each other, not to me.

So when I catch up with my mum, we have a good day, go out for coffee, walk her dog etc, and I don’t deal with any of the shit that usually happens in their lives because it doesn’t concern me. I’m so much happier for that now. It means I can have a relationship with my mum without any negative feelings.

I found out today that my cousin is 4 months pregnant today. My mum didn’t want to tell me because she thought I would freak out, because her and I started trying at the same time, but actually, I’m happy for her and I don’t feel any hard feelings because I’m really happy in my life and where I’m going. I’m so fulfilled right now. :)

Life is great!!

On my walk today I took a photo of these pink and grey cockies on the grass near me, they were so tame, and didn’t move away when I came near.